I'm so Depressed...

I'm beginning to think that I seriously need to get myself some help.  I've always had a very acute imagination, but it's never taken me to the point that I was horrifically depressed about killing one of MY OWN CHARACTERS.

Okay, the story is this:

I was working dilligently on my story, Shinra SOLDIER ( www.fanfiction.net/~highpriestessmegami ) when I realized that Korokou wasn't a character in the game, and thus couldn't survive into the beginning of the game (where the story will ultimately leave off).  So, he had to die.  

Who better to kill him then Hojo?

So I wrote the chapter during which Hojo shoots Korokou...killing him.

Now I'm depressed.  I feel like I've lost a physical friend!  I probably sound positively insane.  I know I sound insane, because I feel insane just typing this!

But seriously, I've been crying my eyes out for two days...and I'm getting sick of feeling so utterly heartbroken.

This is rediculous.

I think I'll go OD on painkillers and go to bed...